Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Feminine Curve Gone Awry



I first noticed I was crooked five or six years ago. I had a Zero Balancing session with a friend who is also a ZB teacher; I'd heard it had done wonders for a boy I knew who'd had a huge accident while skiing.

I woke up the next morning with a sense that something was 'off'. I looked in the mirror and gasped: my right hip was a good inch or more higher than my left. If I straightened my pelvis, my left foot was barely touching the ground.

"I'm crooked!" I told my ZB friend. "Come back," she said. She did another adjustment and that sense of being crooked was gone.

I was so impressed that I became a student. For awhile, I was ZBing all my massage clients as part of their fancy-schmancy spa experience.

But I was still crooked. It wasn't ZB's fault, I think that session just called it to my attention. Maybe it was years of carrying children on my right hip. Maybe it's just the way I'm made. But it's gotten worse.

At my last checkup, my doctor gave it a name: scoliosis. That's the condition where your spine twists in one direction, creating a strange lateral curve. This past snowfall put my twisting spine into the spotlight.

I cleared off a couple of inches of very heavy, wet snow from our driveway a couple of days ago and my back hurt. Nothing new there; I've got a couple of crumbling disks so shoveling hurts. But this time, my right hip has hiked up another inch or so and my left foot is a good inch and half off the ground.

"Look at this," I said to my guy as I lifted my shirt and stood with both feet on the ground.

He looked for a minute, then his eyes widened.

"I was just enjoying the curves, but man! You need a lift in your shoe! You need a brace! You need to go see a chiropractor...now!"

I'm taking his last piece of advice, but it feels like the universe is shaking its finger at me. I rarely do yoga even though I know I should. My job keeps me sitting all day. My daily walks only happen three or four days a week. I'm eating too much. I am not taking care of myself and my spine has decided to graphically illustrate just what that looks like.

I don't know it it's laziness, a sense that I don't deserve much care or a sense of futility in the battle against encroaching age. All three are no excuse because I know better, yet somehow my lethargy has been winning.

This morning, my crooked back and I are walking to the chiropractor. I will eat less and lose weight, since any pounds dropped multiply exponentially for my spine.
And whatever advice the chiropractor gives me to reduce that sideways curve, I will do. Because not only do I hate pain, I hate looking in the mirror and knowing that I'm doing nothing to prevent this strange contortion that could, eventually, make me a twisted, humped little old lady.

I have envisioned myself as a lively, healthy old woman but I'm not doing much to make that a reality. Time to wake up.

7 comments:

meerkat said...

sright you best take care o yo'self. >:|
. . . that's not genetic tho right?

Susan said...

no, gorgeous, it's not. nor, according to the chiropractor I just saw, is it nearly that bad. I'm just all twisted to compensate for some pulled muscles.
phew/

Jo said...

Susan, your scoliosis may be genetic. It's very common, and I have it too. It usually develops around the age of 12. My mother noticed it when I was carrying my school books, but she didn't say anything. I did notice that my back hurt a lot at that time, though. When I was 19 I had to have an x-ray for something, and the doctor said, "Did you know you have scoliosis?" and I said, "Omigod, how long do I have to live?" *heh*

The scary thing about scoliosis is that often a chiropractor can make it worse. It may be very simple to correct, but you should be properly evaluated by an orthopedic specialist first before you continue with a chiropractor.

Please keep us posted.

Cheers,

Jo

The Bug said...

I need to wake up too - I have things going on that would greatly benefit from losing weight & moving around more...

Reya Mellicker said...

I'm so glad you are going to seek some bodywork. Osteopaths are also very helpful for structural stuff.

I hope you won't blame yourself for have a body that isn't exactly perfect. YOu know, NO one has a perfectly straight spine or perfectly balanced hips.

I agree that the ZB made you aware of something you hadn't noticed before. You are beautiful and distinct. Believe me.

Eternally Distracted said...

My Grandad always used to say "If nobody's perfect than I must be nobody" ;0)

Susan said...

Hi, all. Thanks for the notes and encouragement.
I'm still listing to starboard, but that's because I chose to walk all over a mall with my son yesterday.
I haven't seen him since Christmas, so it was an easy choice - sore back/visit w/son, better back/no visit w/son.
This morning I am finally following doctor's orders and icing.
Plus day three of more mindful eating.
Yoga soon.
Reya and E.D. - I gave up on perfect a long time ago. In fact, I have come to be convinced it's the imperfections that create real beauty - I'm just looking for a return to better function.